Wednesday, May 10, 2006




















Sigh.. both dogs looks absolutely adorable right? The one on the left is a mix breed female puppy. Just about 6 months old. She was abandoned by her owner and now is currently under foster care. The one on the right is a spitz mix and akita mix. Roughly about 1 year old and very friendly. They are known to be playful sometimes but also extremely loyal. The three of them are currently under foster care but were ordered by the local municipal council to give them up. Sigh.. i wished i can adopt them but my Subang home is just not suitable. There's already 2 dogs there. Max would certainly welcome the companionship as he's already 10 years old.

Babies sugar glider is also available now. A breeder just offered me a pair at RM450... which is actually a pretty low price.. but i'm out of CASH!! argh.. all i ask is just my overdued 2 months pocket money.. Plan to get the gliders once i'm back in Subang. Have already purchased most of the stuff.

Monday, April 17, 2006

Hmm.. remember what i said about can't wait to go back? I take it back... If possible, i don't want to leave malacca... T.T

Someone asked me what is love. All i can say is, it can be found in the bible.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.


This is how Christ demonstrated love for men (and women) by dying on the cross. He died to save me and protect me from death. He trusted his disciples even though one would betray Him. He had hope that man would one day reconcile with God. He perservered even when the world wanted to crucify Him. He never failed.


It's because of that love, i'm proud to be called His son. It's because of that love, i come to realise what's important to me and to Him. It's because of that love, i can now show it to my dearest.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

God does have a great sense of humour. Trust Him to come up with the unexpected when you least expecting it. No words can describe what i feel now. To have someone to share my life with, to walk side by side in the comfort of each other and to have Christ to be the center of everything. I just pray that history will not repeat itself and nor do i believe that it would.

Many people asked me why do i bother to blog when there's no one reading (total traffic count stands at 42 at the moment, and i'm proud of it :D). After reading through what i've written, it struck me that i'm actually recording down most of my important moments. I don't mind if no one's reading it, but to me it's like having a record and giving me an opportunity to see God's hand at work.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

Just gonna write a quick one. It's 1 AM and i've a big day tomorrow. Gonna go church at 10 to rewire and reposition the speakers. Hopefully will get it done by 12.

It's finally April. 1 more month and i'm back off to Subang and college. Frankly speaking, i can't wait to go back. Realised how important it is to have a group of people who are there all the time to support each other and work togather. Implemented several plans here in Malacca and only time will tell if it'll bear fruit or not. Really praying hard that God will take this land of Malacca and transform it in preparation of His coming. Just told someone that if we want to see things grow and move forward, we must first take the initiative to get things moving. You can look at me and i can look back at you and nothing will be done. There are times when we are supposed to wait and there are times that we must do something and now is that time.

Someone asked me why am I not tired of hearing other people troubles and helping them. Been thinking back on what that person said to me. I realised i was never like this, never had the patience to listen to others about their troubles and laying down options for them. Then i realised that it was because someone else is bearing my own heartaches and dissapointment for me, someone whom i acknowledge as my Lord and Saviour, someone whos name is Jesus. Oh how have i taken that for granted most of the time. How have i been so ungrateful to such grace. My works will never repay what He has done for me and i can only give thanks in my small voice.

While preparing for tomorrow's study, one word came very strongly to me. It's like someone's whispering to my mind all the time. HUMBLE. Humility is what i have to learn. Thinking back on what chen said to me, i guess she was right. I do sound uncaring at times. That i have to change. Perhaps through humility and being humble, i can accomplish more for Jesus compared to now. I shall try and with God's transforming power, learn to be humble among his children. To be a servant to others.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

I guess a picture is worth a thousand words. Decided to upload this picture to really stress what i'm trying to say here. I think many of you guys out there heard about and maybe have been approached by people from a company called DCHL. My advice to you, stay away from it. Run as far as you can before they start brainwashing you.

So how did this little crusade start? Let me tell you a simple story. It was one sunny Friday where everything was going on pretty well.. well then again.. maybe not so well cos i lost every dota match on that day. A former classmate of mine called me in the afternoon to ask me out for a drink in the evening. Note, this friend was involved in the national service with me. I thinking to myself, "hmm.. haven't been in contact for so long, still can remember me eh? Of course wan go yam cha la.. can catch up on old times." So i agreed for the meeting without thinking twice.

Arriving at Starbucks, i was suprised to see so many of my old classmates there. At first, i thought they were there to study or it was just a coincident. Boy, how wrong was I. They were all there waiting for people to enter their den so they can have a bite. Started to chat with this friend of mine. Our topic seems to always hover on the theme of money. "How much money are you making now? Are you interested in making more money?" was his questions. Then he started to unveil his "business plan" which is no other than another MLM (Multi level marketing) scheme. At first, i thought " what the heck, ask me out for another MLM session?" After that, i was thinking since i was there already, my as well hear him out. To cut the story short, he was proposing that i pay RM2500 to join/buy the company's (DCHL) franchise/membership. After that, all my former classmates started to come one by one to "talk" to me. After the 2nd person, i was already feeling like having a mass massacre in there. Imagine 6 people coming to you and start singing the same song. One of my former classmate, which i shall call KJ, came and talked to me. Now, this guy used to be the biggest BS in class/form/school (you pick one). Now, after joining that DCHL thingy, i think he would qualify for the world's biggest BSser. Join 9 days onli wan come and talk like you've been in there for 20 years? Please la, i'm not a 5 year old kid for you to bluff.

Came back pretty pissed off. Went straight to my comp and started to research on that company. Called up my contacts in WSJ (Wall Street Journal) for some background info. It appears that this company is pretty "famous" on Lowyat.net already. Quite a number of people have falled for their "brilliant business plan" ( my take as someone who studied business, the plan is flawed and cannot be used in the real world ). You see, what they are trying to do here is sell a membership to me, not a product. After that, i'll then have to find another 5 people to sell the membership in order for me to recoup my loss. That 5 will then find another 5 so that they can recoup their loss and the list goes on. In order to earn real money, i'll then have to fork out 30k so that i can "cut count" and be upgraded to a count status. So where do i find this 30K? By digging from my downlines of course. I get them to work harder, recuit more people so that i can earn from their membership fees. Gee, thats so clever rite? In the end, what have i turned into? I'm no different from a blood sucking vampire!

What DCHL's members are focusing now is on the sale of their membership. Their products are secondary. I mean, who would want to sell products when membership recuitment yields the most? FYI, if more than 60% of an MLM's profit is derived from membership recuitment fees, then it's called a pyramid scheme and is illegal in many countries. The only reason why no action has been taken thus far is because in the process of the transaction, they (DCHL people) will transfer over some products to make it look legal. A friend of mine told me, "u dun wan Lampe Berger? nevermine, can take estabelle skincare products or eduard pinot perfume." Those items are useless in business term. They cannot be sold to the masses because there's no demand for them and their price is being marked up so high to feed all the uplines. Who would in the right mind, spend 300-400 bucks a month for aromatherapy oil or 1-3k for a Letterman bag? As you can see, the market for it is pretty ninche.

If anyone tries to approach you to join this scheme, ask them in the face to show you a breakdown on their actual real profit. Ask them to show you the actual profit from the sale of products, not from the recuiting fees. Ask them how much of their product is actually sold to an end user, not to their own distributer. Most of the people who joined end up being the users of those products because they cannot sell it off. Either that or they transfer it to their brainwashed downlines.

There's just too much to say in one post. If you're interested to know more, please join us in our discussion at LB discussion or you can visit Lampe Berger Help for a comprehensive explaination. Anti Lampe Berger is also another good site for our anti DCHL/LB campaign.
remember, say no to DCHL. They'll only make your life miserable, not happy. Is it worth to lose your friends just to earn a few bucks? Where's the satisfaction in doing that? In the end, your only circle of friends is limited to your business partner.

Friday, February 17, 2006

Someone special prepared lunch for me today. Finally get to taste food prepared by her own hands. ^.^ Not surpisingly though, the spaghettie was pretty good though quite a number of people ffked us. Had so much leftovers in the end. Promised to prepare lunch for them next week. Ideas are already swirling around my head.. Thinking of doing a seafood pasta for everyone and a pork pasta for yen mei as she couldn't take seafood or chicken.. poor gal >.<

Am worship leading tomorrow and i still haven't finalized my songs. Some things are troubling my mind. Why is it that it's so hard to get people to worship? Is it because of me and my style? The main purpose/job of a worship leader is to lead people in worshipping God, and if the congregation doesn't want to worship, does this mean i'm failing as a worship leader? One thing i know for sure, even if no one worships God, the rocks will soon cry out in worship.

Finally just want to add something before completing this post and reboot my pc. Visited Sarah's grave this morning before work after so many years of trying to avoid that place and have finally made peace with myself. Locking up the past two chapters of my life and with the help from God, to throw away the key and never to look back again. What will the new chapter bring, i do not know. One thing i know for sure though, the key to this book shall not be given freely anymore.

Sigh, why am i always a suckered for one way relationship? Stupid stupid stupid.. how come i never learn.. -_-; Oh course i'm commanded to love even those who despise me, but when will i ever learn to guard my heart. Feel like just want to lock up that troublesome feeling and throw away the key, that way i won't make a fool out of myself again.

Went for NOC drama play just now in MMU. All i can say is, good job to the guys from SPARC for producing such a great musical production. Most people were complaining that it was too long, but i guess they have to go through that experience to really understand what the whole drama is about. To watch the drama is like watching a reply of my life and to see Sean is like seeing myself in 3rd person, you know the kind of weird feeling. Anyway, as i've said to a friend of mine, that chapter is close and i'm moving on to a new one.

Been having headaches about YA specifically the college cell group. Looking at how things are going, it's really discouraging to me physically and spiritually. What's the point of preparing everything when i can't even get an approval? I only have 3 more months here in Malacca, and i don't want to waste it by just spending my time working to earn some money. I want to make a difference for God!

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Valentines day... a day where you show love to those whom you cherish... It all began when a guy by the name of Valentino sheltered couples who were persecuted by society. He gave his life in the process and thus, on this day, we celebrate his life by cherishing those we love.

Finally poured out what's on my heart for such a long time. Is it a suicide act or is it a glimps of hope, i do not know. All i can do now is to wait for a reply. Sometimes it's just frustrating when you can't find the words to say what you feel, even to those who are close to you. Is this my weakness? The inability to express or is it my own defence to avoid hurting people and myself?

A friend of mine wrote this song, and i feel it's very approprate at this point of time. It's called Love Defined.

When I look back into my life
I think all about the way You love me
Your gentleness, Your faithfulness
Oh how it captures my heart

It is a dream come true
When I found You
It is so beautiful
This love that i feel
It's just too good to be true
But i know that it's real
Now all that i can say
Is love defined

When I look back into my life
I think all about the love we have
So beautiful, so wonderful
I can't help loving You more

(Bridge)
It is not a fairy tale
That only kids believe
It is not a fantasy
That only fools live in
It is something real