Odinary life made extra-odinary by the supra-odinary God :D

2006-05-10T16:43:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. both dogs looks absolutely adorable right? The one on the left is a mix breed female puppy. Just about 6 months old. She was abandoned by her owner and now is currently under foster care. The one on the right is a spitz mix and akita mix. Roughly about 1 year old and very friendly. They are known to be playful sometimes but also extremely loyal. The three of them are currently under foster care but were ordered by the local municipal council to give them up. Sigh.. i wished i can adopt them but my Subang home is just not suitable. There's already 2 dogs there. Max would certainly welcome the companionship as he's already 10 years old.

Babies sugar glider is also available now. A breeder just offered me a pair at RM450... which is actually a pretty low price.. but i'm out of CASH!! argh.. all i ask is just my overdued 2 months pocket money.. Plan to get the gliders once i'm back in Subang. Have already purchased most of the stuff.

2006-04-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. remember what i said about can't wait to go back? I take it back... If possible, i don't want to leave malacca... T.T

Someone asked me what is love. All i can say is, it can be found in the bible.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

This is how Christ demonstrated love for men (and women) by dying on the cross. He died to save me and protect me from death. He trusted his disciples even though one would betray Him. He had hope that man would one day reconcile with God. He perservered even when the world wanted to crucify Him. He never failed.

It's because of that love, i'm proud to be called His son. It's because of that love, i come to realise what's important to me and to Him. It's because of that love, i can now show it to my dearest.

2006-04-12T02:26:00.000+08:00

God does have a great sense of humour. Trust Him to come up with the unexpected when you least expecting it. No words can describe what i feel now. To have someone to share my life with, to walk side by side in the comfort of each other and to have Christ to be the center of everything. I just pray that history will not repeat itself and nor do i believe that it would.

Many people asked me why do i bother to blog when there's no one reading (total traffic count stands at 42 at the moment, and i'm proud of it :D). After reading through what i've written, it struck me that i'm actually recording down most of my important moments. I don't mind if no one's reading it, but to me it's like having a record and giving me an opportunity to see God's hand at work.

2006-04-01T01:16:00.000+08:00

Just gonna write a quick one. It's 1 AM and i've a big day tomorrow. Gonna go church at 10 to rewire and reposition the speakers. Hopefully will get it done by 12.

It's finally April. 1 more month and i'm back off to Subang and college. Frankly speaking, i can't wait to go back. Realised how important it is to have a group of people who are there all the time to support each other and work togather. Implemented several plans here in Malacca and only time will tell if it'll bear fruit or not. Really praying hard that God will take this land of Malacca and transform it in preparation of His coming. Just told someone that if we want to see things grow and move forward, we must first take the initiative to get things moving. You can look at me and i can look back at you and nothing will be done. There are times when we are supposed to wait and there are times that we must do something and now is that time.

Someone asked me why am I not tired of hearing other people troubles and helping them. Been thinking back on what that person said to me. I realised i was never like this, never had the patience to listen to others about their troubles and laying down options for them. Then i realised that it was because someone else is bearing my own heartaches and dissapointment for me, someone whom i acknowledge as my Lord and Saviour, someone whos name is Jesus. Oh how have i taken that for granted most of the time. How have i been so ungrateful to such grace. My works will never repay what He has done for me and i can only give thanks in my small voice.

While preparing for tomorrow's study, one word came very strongly to me. It's like someone's whispering to my mind all the time. HUMBLE. Humility is what i have to learn. Thinking back on what chen said to me, i guess she was right. I do sound uncaring at times. That i have to change. Perhaps through humility and being humble, i can accomplish more for Jesus compared to now. I shall try and with God's transforming power, learn to be humble among his children. To be a servant to others.

2006-03-22T00:54:00.000+08:00

I guess a picture is worth a thousand words. Decided to upload this picture to really stress what i'm trying to say here. I think many of you guys out there heard about and maybe have been approached by people from a company called DCHL. My advice to you, stay away from it. Run as far as you can before they start brainwashing you.

So how did this little crusade start? Let me tell you a simple story. It was one sunny Friday where everything was going on pretty well.. well then again.. maybe not so well cos i lost every dota match on that day. A former classmate of mine called me in the afternoon to ask me out for a drink in the evening. Note, this friend was involved in the national service with me. I thinking to myself, "hmm.. haven't been in contact for so long, still can remember me eh? Of course wan go yam cha la.. can catch up on old times." So i agreed for the meeting without thinking twice.

Arriving at Starbucks, i was suprised to see so many of my old classmates there. At first, i thought they were there to study or it was just a coincident. Boy, how wrong was I. They were all there waiting for people to enter their den so they can have a bite. Started to chat with this friend of mine. Our topic seems to always hover on the theme of money. "How much money are you making now? Are you interested in making more money?" was his questions. Then he started to unveil his "business plan" which is no other than another MLM (Multi level marketing) scheme. At first, i thought " what the heck, ask me out for another MLM session?" After that, i was thinking since i was there already, my as well hear him out. To cut the story short, he was proposing that i pay RM2500 to join/buy the company's (DCHL) franchise/membership. After that, all my former classmates started to come one by one to "talk" to me. After the 2nd person, i was already feeling like having a mass massacre in there. Imagine 6 people coming to you and start singing the same song. One of my former classmate, which i shall call KJ, came and talked to me. Now, this guy used to be the biggest BS in class/form/school (you pick one). Now, after joining that DCHL thingy, i think he would qualify for the world's biggest BSser. Join 9 days onli wan come and talk like you've been in there for 20 years? Please la, i'm not a 5 year old kid for you to bluff.

Came back pretty pissed off. Went straight to my comp and started to research on that company. Called up my contacts in WSJ (Wall Street Journal) for some background info. It appears that this company is pretty "famous" on Lowyat.net already. Quite a number of people have falled for their "brilliant business plan" ( my take as someone who studied business, the plan is flawed and cannot be used in the real world ). You see, what they are trying to do here is sell a membership to me, not a product. After that, i'll then have to find another 5 people to sell the membership in order for me to recoup my loss. That 5 will then find another 5 so that they can recoup their loss and the list goes on. In order to earn real money, i'll then have to fork out 30k so that i can "cut count" and be upgraded to a count status. So where do i find this 30K? By digging from my downlines of course. I get them to work harder, recuit more people so that i can earn from their membership fees. Gee, thats so clever rite? In the end, what have i turned into? I'm no different from a blood sucking vampire!

What DCHL's members are focusing now is on the sale of their membership. Their products are secondary. I mean, who would want to sell products when membership recuitment yields the most? FYI, if more than 60% of an MLM's profit is derived from membership recuitment fees, then it's called a pyramid scheme and is illegal in many countries. The only reason why no action has been taken thus far is because in the process of the transaction, they (DCHL people) will transfer over some products to make it look legal. A friend of mine told me, "u dun wan Lampe Berger? nevermine, can take estabelle skincare products or eduard pinot perfume." Those items are useless in business term. They cannot be sold to the masses because there's no demand for them and their price is being marked up so high to feed all the uplines. Who would in the right mind, spend 300-400 bucks a month for aromatherapy oil or 1-3k for a Letterman bag? As you can see, the market for it is pretty ninche.

If anyone tries to approach you to join this scheme, ask them in the face to show you a breakdown on their actual real profit. Ask them to show you the actual profit from the sale of products, not from the recuiting fees. Ask them how much of their product is actually sold to an end user, not to their own distributer. Most of the people who joined end up being the users of those products because they cannot sell it off. Either that or they transfer it to their brainwashed downlines.

There's just too much to say in one post. If you're interested to know more, please join us in our discussion at LB discussion or you can visit Lampe Berger Help for a comprehensive explaination. Anti Lampe Berger is also another good site for our anti DCHL/LB campaign.
remember, say no to DCHL. They'll only make your life miserable, not happy. Is it worth to lose your friends just to earn a few bucks? Where's the satisfaction in doing that? In the end, your only circle of friends is limited to your business partner.

2006-02-17T22:02:00.000+08:00

Someone special prepared lunch for me today. Finally get to taste food prepared by her own hands. ^.^ Not surpisingly though, the spaghettie was pretty good though quite a number of people ffked us. Had so much leftovers in the end. Promised to prepare lunch for them next week. Ideas are already swirling around my head.. Thinking of doing a seafood pasta for everyone and a pork pasta for yen mei as she couldn't take seafood or chicken.. poor gal >.<

Am worship leading tomorrow and i still haven't finalized my songs. Some things are troubling my mind. Why is it that it's so hard to get people to worship? Is it because of me and my style? The main purpose/job of a worship leader is to lead people in worshipping God, and if the congregation doesn't want to worship, does this mean i'm failing as a worship leader? One thing i know for sure, even if no one worships God, the rocks will soon cry out in worship.

Finally just want to add something before completing this post and reboot my pc. Visited Sarah's grave this morning before work after so many years of trying to avoid that place and have finally made peace with myself. Locking up the past two chapters of my life and with the help from God, to throw away the key and never to look back again. What will the new chapter bring, i do not know. One thing i know for sure though, the key to this book shall not be given freely anymore.

2006-02-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

Sigh, why am i always a suckered for one way relationship? Stupid stupid stupid.. how come i never learn.. -_-; Oh course i'm commanded to love even those who despise me, but when will i ever learn to guard my heart. Feel like just want to lock up that troublesome feeling and throw away the key, that way i won't make a fool out of myself again.

Went for NOC drama play just now in MMU. All i can say is, good job to the guys from SPARC for producing such a great musical production. Most people were complaining that it was too long, but i guess they have to go through that experience to really understand what the whole drama is about. To watch the drama is like watching a reply of my life and to see Sean is like seeing myself in 3rd person, you know the kind of weird feeling. Anyway, as i've said to a friend of mine, that chapter is close and i'm moving on to a new one.

Been having headaches about YA specifically the college cell group. Looking at how things are going, it's really discouraging to me physically and spiritually. What's the point of preparing everything when i can't even get an approval? I only have 3 more months here in Malacca, and i don't want to waste it by just spending my time working to earn some money. I want to make a difference for God!

2006-02-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

Valentines day... a day where you show love to those whom you cherish... It all began when a guy by the name of Valentino sheltered couples who were persecuted by society. He gave his life in the process and thus, on this day, we celebrate his life by cherishing those we love.

Finally poured out what's on my heart for such a long time. Is it a suicide act or is it a glimps of hope, i do not know. All i can do now is to wait for a reply. Sometimes it's just frustrating when you can't find the words to say what you feel, even to those who are close to you. Is this my weakness? The inability to express or is it my own defence to avoid hurting people and myself?

A friend of mine wrote this song, and i feel it's very approprate at this point of time. It's called Love Defined.

When I look back into my life
I think all about the way You love me
Your gentleness, Your faithfulness
Oh how it captures my heart

It is a dream come true
When I found You
It is so beautiful
This love that i feel
It's just too good to be true
But i know that it's real
Now all that i can say
Is love defined

When I look back into my life
I think all about the love we have
So beautiful, so wonderful
I can't help loving You more

(Bridge)
It is not a fairy tale
That only kids believe
It is not a fantasy
That only fools live in
It is something real

2006-01-15T00:54:00.000+08:00

It's been quite a while since i last posted and so here are some updates and slivers of thoughts. Exam results came out (thought later than expected) and good news is that i have enough credits and CGPA to qualify me for my degree year. Bad news is.. my degree year starts in May.. sigh..

Decided to spend my time in my hometown instead of Subang since it's much cheaper here.. plus i get to eat home cooked food .. :D Went around looking for jobs and looks like all the retail and non professional jobs are taken up by form 5 and fom 6 students... darn them.. >.< Guess now i have to work as intern... man i hate the low pay.. Still i hope to be able to handle a project like what i did for HP PR roadshow. :D Been quite awhile since i've run something big..

Today's sliver of thoughts actually came from the Cre8tive Seminar held last week by Dave Evans and his team of talented musicians. They are the creative people behind Hillsong, Planetshakers and Paradise. Plus a main singer from Newsboy, now a pastor was also there. Man i loved newsboys. :D Anyway back to the topic.. To sum up what Dave said during the conference.. " You got to have dreams, and you have to give your dreams legs." Dreams are actually the first step in a milestone... but what actually makes history is giving dreams legs to come to past. As far as i know, GRYP is gonna have a spectacular year and though i'm not gonna be there for the first half of the year, i'm gonna be in Malacca doing what i can and best to make an impact, difference and change lives. Are you gonna do the same?

2006-01-01T01:11:00.000+08:00

A new year has come and the old has passed. 31st Dec, a time of reflections and refraction. 1st of Jan, a time of new resolutions and determination.

One book in the bible struck me most during watch night service. The book of Joshua. At the first chapter of Joshua, God said to Joshua "My servant Moses is dead. Now, therefore, arise, go over this Jordan, you and all this people to the land which I give to them, to the sons of Israel. " (Josh 1:2). Moses, the leader of Isreal had passed away and now, it's time for the new leadership, Joshua to lead his people into the promise land and claim the promise which has been given by God. Even as Joshua led his people to claim the promise land, he was faced with giants of sorts. The wall of Jericho, giants of the land (different nations), treachery from his own people. Despite all the giants that appeared in his mission to conquer the land, Joshua was able to defeat them all with God leading the battle.

Lesson learnt from this simple yet astounding book is that as the new year comes, we must now pick ourselves up and claim the promise of God. Joshua wasn't complacent when God called him and neither should we. Joshua had defeated the giants that stood in his way to claim God's promise with God's help. It is the same as us. Even as we enter into the new year, there are still giants in our lives, including mine, that hinders us from reaching a higher relationship with the Lord. I pray, that on this first day of the year, the Lord will lead my battle to defeat my giants in life and i will not be complacent anymore.

2005-12-21T13:55:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. almost two week in malacca already and i can say it sure is huge change from kl life. Taking this time to recharge and get ready for a new year in college. Results coming out soon and i hope i did well this time. I need 4 more subjects to qualify me for the BsCommunication..

Christmas is coming and i can't get ppl presents.. that so sad right. Actually started this month with only 200 bucks cos of the new phone purchase. Sigh.. sorry lar guys no christmas present this year. I promise i'll make it up next year :D.

Seeing someone get back on the right track is the best christmas present one could receive. Just glad that a friend of mine has managed to put all the past hurt away and move forward in life. I guess now i can stop meddling in people's life and start managing mine in more detail. Next year is gonna be a challenging year if things actualize to plan.

Still haven't watch Narnia and King Kong.. i think i'm just gonna go watch alone. Everytime wait for people but no one want to go..

2005-12-15T19:02:00.000+08:00

Sigh... the last day of camp. Time seemed to fly so fast when you're just having a great time. Today's the last day of H.U.G.E Camp 2005 and i can safely say this is one of the best camp every in terms of speaker and God's presence. But according to those who are staying in the resort, the place is really bad. Quite a number of people got food poisoning and some of the rooms are in bad condition. However all those just seem to go away when you're in God's presence.

This camp served as a refresher and a reminder to me.. about my promised made to God one year ago. It is also an accountablality check for me to God. I can't say i fully understand and know what God's plan is for me but it seems like it's unreveling itself day by day. And looking at the new year is coming, i've amended this year's resolution to be used next year as there are still things which i had not accomplished.

I'm really tired. Think i'm gonna just crash out and forget dinner. Too tired to even think already.

2005-12-14T00:19:00.000+08:00

Man! what a day!! 2nd day of H.U.G.E camp.. and camp unofficially started today.. and i guess i'm the only one who has a blog about it on the 2nd day :D Guess what, i'm actually staying in my own bedroom for this year's H.U.G.E camp cos the campsite is like 10 minutes away from home only.

GRYP band led worship today and i just want to give all glory to God for His faithfullness and blessings. Everything just went so well and all i can say is that it's a miracle from God... not from our own skills (which in this case is also God given). Practice on yesterday night was horrible.. majorly my fault for bringing an untuned guitar to stage for practice. Guess one lesson learn from here is that i should always retune a newly stringed guitar. Other than that, we were basically overwhelmed by the new environment and the number of crowd (800+++ btw) until Pastor reminded us that we are worshippers and not performers on stage. I guess that changed the whole perspective. We only worship and perform for one audience.. that is the God in heaven! This morning, everything just went clockwork. Another testimony here is that when we earnestly seek God in prayer, God will meet us in tangible ways. The instruments sounded great and the vocals were in top form. What's more important is the crowd were worshipping God in spirit and in truth.. that's the most rewarding thing a band leading worship can see... to see people worshipping God!

The invited guest speaker, Pastor Chad is great. He's a total joker and a awesome man of God. His messages were simple but yet addresses what needs to be addressed. This year's theme is SNATCH... which means plundering hell and populating Heaven! This year's YAM band is also the best ever considering that the members comes from 5 different states.

It's almost 12:30... and while i was praying for a youth... one special person came up to my mind... She's in a camp at the moment and i pray for God's annointing and blessings upon her life. I believe that whenever we seek Him in faith, He will answer.

2005-12-08T00:12:00.000+08:00

it's 12:12 am.. 8th october.. the first 12 minutes of my last day of exams. Having organizational communications and interviewing paper later this afternoon. Looking at how things are going at the moment, i'm kinda worried. Only decided which essay to write on this afternoon after going through all the 3 other questions in details, looking through their pros and cons. Though organizational communication is an open book exams, what the lecturer hinted was it's gonna be a pretty tough exam.

Decided to write on management styles which are relevant to contemporary companies. Question itself is kinda hard cos how does one define contemporary? In the end, decided to break it down into two categories which is manufacturing/production organization and customer service organization. Gonna use Infineon and Google as my essay subject. Hopefully this will work.

As for interviewing... i finally gave up reading the text book. Even though sounds like an easy exam. but the truth is.. i'm afraid.. I can't afford to fail any more subjects if i want to transfer to the local degree as soon as possible. I guess everything is in the hands of the Almighty one now eh? Praying and believing that a miracle will happen. I claim the victory which has already been won by my Saviour!

2005-12-01T14:43:00.000+08:00

Finally have a new RAZR to shave off all the extra facial hair :D lol. Just bought my new phone yesterday at subang. Come to think of it, this is actually my first phone purchase for myself. All the phones i bought last time were for my friends and i can say that it was quite an experience. :D

Reason why i changed my phone was because my trusty 3310 decided to pass on to the other world. Had been using that for almost 4 years so i guess it's time to change. I shall miss those special moments i shared with that phone.. eg going swimming togather in the lake while kayaking, abseiling down the tree and landed on my butt and not to mention the uncountable head on collision it has endured throughout it's life. All i can say is that it has served me well.

Now onto the new RAZR :D. I actually planned to get a 2nd hand V80 which my friend had offered me couple of weeks ago. Unfortunately i was a little slow on comfirming my purchase so he sold it off to another buyer. After doing some research and looking up stuff on the net, narrowed it down to 2 phones. Nokia 6260 or RAZR V3. Someone then told me that 6260 is not a very reliable phone so i guess it's down to the v3. Went down to Lowyat and Sungei Wang with Jeff and John to look for the phone but they are all selling it at above 1k. Kinda high for me. So after Jeff had bought his soundcard, we decided to scout out subang parade and see if there's anyone selling it there. Guess what... one of the shops is selling it for pretty good price. :D

2005-11-28T22:23:00.000+08:00

Monday 28... some might see it as getting closer to exams but is see it as it's about time for holidays. Pretty confident in 3 subjects, leaving only microecons on the line with about a week to go through the whole book. Guess i could regret taking it at the start of the semester but what's the point of doing that now? Kinda late for that anyway right? Still believing that miracles can happen :D

My trusty 3310 which i had for almost 4 years decided to go into coma this morning. I tried everything short of CPR to resusitate it but it just won't turn on. Changed the batteries too. Was getting frustrated till i dropped the phone. Guess what happened then... it decided to come back online. >.<>.< man.. 3 same phone in YA... that's scary... lol. But seriously.. if i really don't have any other alternative.. i guess i could get that... the silver one looks cool. Having said that... i only have about 600 bucks to spend.. which kinda limit my choices.. Guess i have to hang on to this phone until january then..

Another thing happened today which kinda makes me sad and dissapointed at the same time. All 3 of my aunts where here for dinner... made dinner for them and i kinda regret doing it.. I mean i wasn't even enjoying making dinner... and aunt was like wan this and want that... I'm like .. come on man.. You want me to make dinner, then stand out of the way and let me do it my style.. if not..then u just do it your self..
Anyway after dinner everyone was at the hall having a chat.. was in room tyring to cram some stuff into brain but was too noisy.. So decided to go out and watch some tv.. Everyone was talking about things which happen to kids when they get lost in public and stuff... Everything from chopping off hand and become a beggar to dressing you up like a boy (for girls).. and best of all .. they were directing those "threats" to their kids right in front of them.. Come on dude.. you guys are parents and this is your way of teaching your kids to obey you in public? Get real... I doubt this only happen in my family.. i believe most families in malaysia tell the same thing to their kids.. Don't they realise that by doing so, they are actually instilling a psychological effect in their developing minds? When their kid gets lost, all they will be thinking is those "idiot stuff" their parents pour into their minds and panic instead of looking for ways to get back to their parents... A word to parents, do you want your kids to panic in the middle of a large crowd? good, cos you've just attracted attention of those predetors you're trying to get them to avoid in the first place. I might not be a parent but growing up with a dad who wants me to be independent does qualify me to say at least this part.

2005-10-31T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. 30 minutes more and it's the end of my birthday. 31st october.. that's the date yours truely was born. Though having been on this earth for 19 years, i can't really say i've experienced everything and i'm still on this journey to search my true self. By God's grace, i'll find what He wants me to be.

Spent the morning trying to finish up my interviewing class assignment. Can safely say it's 90% done. Parents coming up on wednesday so dun wanna spoil the weekend. Btw, youth gave me a suprise party yesterday. They got me a cake.... a fruit cake.. something which i never had before in my life. lol Thanks guys for it, really took me by suprise. Went for dinner with both aunt's family just now at a pretty good chinese restaurant. The guys suddenly want to go for movie, decided to watch "Corpse Bride". Was a great show.. pretty creative and pretty good storyline.. It's just amazing that the show is made from still shots, no 3d animation involved.. Imagine the painstaking work.

Well.. 13 minutes left.. I guess it's time to say.. happy birthday to me for the last time :D

2005-10-30T00:05:00.000+08:00

Hmm, today's someone's birthday wor. Well actually it was yesterday and he had a party today. Happy 21st birthday John! Went to his party just now and pretty much trashed his place. Oh yea, few of us from the college cell decided to give him a surprise on thursday midnight. We went to his place at 11.45 and his mom was outside waiting for us. We crept up the stairs and started singing the birthday song. And boy was he shocked. :DTrust PN to come up with crazy ideas..

So John's birthday's over already.. and i guess mine's coming up.. Hate getting older. Not that i dislike the extra responsibility, it's just i'm passing through 1 more year just like that. It just seem so meaningless. Best thing of all, i can't remember if i'm 19 or 20 cum this 31st.. >.< talk about being blur man.. lol

2005-10-28T01:53:00.000+08:00

Lol.. wanted to write this on Sunday night after i got back from Tropicana... but guess i was too tired to even start up my computer, and monday was loaded with assignments.. so here am i.. Tuesday, writing about what has happened on Sunday.

Sunday was HPA 11th anniversary and we had a dinner function at Tropicana Golf & Country Club. Was a pretty busy day as most of us were there at 2pm (after church service and after lunch) to set things up, do a sound check and also a last minute practice for the worship team. To cut it short, everything went awesomely well. Had a chance to drive around the club and see some "nonsense" houses. Looking at the size of the houses, i believe that there's more than 1 maid involved in the housekeeping process. They are just pure nonsense.. :D

Guests started arriving at 6 (which is unusual) as usually for Malaysian culture, people tend to arrive late for any function. Anyway, about 67 tables were taken up so that's about 670++ people in the Grand Ballroom. By the way, did i mention that Juwita Suwito was one of our guest of honor?

Speaking about her, she sang 5 songs that night.. and i think most of us at table 1 had our jaws on the ground. You just can't get enough of her voice.. before she went on stage, PN was so gracious to bring her over to our table ^.^ . Most of us managed to get a shot with her. It's just so sad that most of the people there don't even know who she is.

Anyway, day ended with a great note.. Food was great, compared to last year.. and the fund raising part was good too. As much as we would like to think that it was us who did a great job, it wasn't us. It's all because of God's faithfulness and God's hand at work!